wah wah.

i just need to get some negativity out of my head and onto some.. "paper", i guess.

i don't want to study, i don't want to do anything remotely related to school, i don't want to wake up in the morning, all i want to do is be lazy, lay in my bed and read. i cannot wait for fall break. if it's even worth calling a break, i guess one day off will do me some good. i wish i didn't complain so much about school. i really shouldn't. i am so lucky to even be able to go to college, i'm lucky i get the grades i do, and that i have some sort of future worth living ahead of me. and i know once i'm done with school i'll wish i was still taking classes instead of whatever i'll be doing then. i'm being silly and pessimistic. it's just hard going day in and day out, doing the same thing each week. but it could be worse. my life could be so much worse. so, i'm just going to stop, right now.