let love in.

1. pleasing others; making them laugh.. or approve of me, like me.
2. getting good grades. keeping that GPA above a 3.4.
3. worrying about my body and my insecurities.
4. being the person i think i "should" be.
5. judgment.
6. lust.
7. skepticism.

these are the things i'm identifying with rather than God. these are the things i'm letting control me, the things i'm letting stand between me and Him... the things i'm dealing with everyday. i don't know how to NOT have these things constantly running through my head... i don't know HOW to let God completely take over for me... so i guess my #8 would be trust. i've always thought i was living a pretty good life, doing what i should, making mistakes.. yeah, but that's just part of it. but while immersing myself in all of God's glory.. i'm not great at all.. not even close. and i feel like i'm being hard on myself... maybe to an extent i am, i don't know. i don't know how to center God in this life or how to accept His love, acceptance, and approval...

you have taken of your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its creator........ colossians 3:9-10

i want to be IN CHAINS FOR CHRIST... not these other things. :(